Why We're All Anxious & Weird (2023)


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In this video, we follow a totally normal, average day that is, in truth, anything but normal.

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As a result of a swirling disk of gas and dust that stuck together and formed the earth in a rotating solar system, the earth ceaselessly rotates around its axis, revealing a nearby star to wherever you are within every 24-hour period.

At some point, in coordination with this today, you wake up your consciousness and ordinary function turn back on after having been shut down for around five to eight hours.

Fundamentally, you don't know why you did this, why you shut yourself off for some prolonged period of mostly unconscious vulnerability? No one fully does you do, however, do it for about one third of every day which equals to about three to four months of every year? While you were asleep, you dreamt around four to six different times.

You probably don't remember, maybe one or two of them, if any, they were likely very strange and the recalling of them is probably even stranger.

You don't know why you dreamt, and you don't know why your brain created those particular arrangements of experiences and memories and imagine concepts of impossibilities blended together into a specific self-induced mental simulation of reality.

Of course, no one fully knows in between each dream in terms of your conscious sense of awareness, your you, there was nothing a deathly oblivion that you dipped in and out of with each oscillating type of brainwave.

After this mini fantasy-infused death dream roller coaster, you get up and likely stand under a spout that pours an essentially endless stream of liquid onto you.

The liquid is almost the same as the gas you just slept in, except there are two additional atoms of another gas added to it, forming a new molecular arrangement.

During this you rub some manufactured slimy goop on the outer layer of your body, so it doesn't smell bad because you might smell after having laid down and done nothing for several hours after cleaning and covering yourself, you might put some stuff in the large opening of your face.

You almost certainly eat some form of dead plants or animals, because you must, in some form or another, in order to keep your own life alive.

You'll have to do this again numerous times throughout the day.

You might not remember to, however, until your body starts, creating a clenching sensation and making your brain feel light-headed or angry or uncomfortable, because sometimes oftentimes, your body has to inflict discomfort or pain onto you in order to remind you when or when not to do things.

After this, you probably hopefully brush the sharp hard objects sticking out of the opening in your face with some paste so to ensure that they don't smell and deteriorate.

Generally speaking, you have now done all the necessary preparatory stuff in order to start your day and exist in the world of other people, all of who, basically just did the same sorts of things, depending on the order of the days in which the earth has rotated around its axis in relation to the sun within a seven day cycle, you will likely interact with other people throughout the day, perhaps in an effort towards some mutually agreed upon goal of work, perhaps more casually with people who you were born in biological association with or perhaps with, people who you have met and liked enough to keep around whoever they are in order to interact and communicate.

They will all attempt to translate electrical firings in their brain turn.

Sensations turn thoughts, turned words moving the base of their skull up and down in order to register and reverberate them into electrical firings in your own, and vice versa.

You will likely, understandably, have a fairly hard time during some of these interactions.

Throughout the day, you also probably see strangers as you pass by walking or driving.

You might meet glances with a few, some of whom you might exchange a small nod or grin in a recognition of the moment.

Perhaps not each one of these people will be moving through their own entirely unique complex day and life experiencing this passing fleeting moment, with just as much central feeling and point of view as you, and yet you will likely see them as they see you with some level of overarching personal indifference and objectification.

Despite this, you will sense that you are an entity in their mind and you will likely act or feel slightly different in their momentary gaze.

Mostly all of these people, you will never see again, nor will they see you.

Their string of moments will continue on.

In another direction that you will never know, but will be just as intense and meaningful to them as yours to you, you will live and move across the planet throughout the day, while the planet itself moves and lives through.

Some unending space of apparent nothingness that you nor anyone else throughout the entirety of the planet's history, has ever had any real, accurate clue as to what it truly is and where it leads.

In every moment the earth will move to a different position in space, never to return to the exact same one.

Ever again, you will breathe your eyelids.

Will blink your heart will beat your blood will pump the entirety of the complex vessel that you call your body will operate all day almost entirely on its own, mostly all of which needs to operate properly for any of the rest too.

And if the rest, doesn't you don't? You might have strange thoughts throughout the day, some of which you might find disconcerting, some that might not even really feel like you, certain experiences and perceptions might trigger desires or repulsions, or thoughts that are perhaps counter to what you might hold to be acceptable or in line with who you think you are and should be.

You might wonder why you have thoughts that you don't want to have, and if, supposedly you don't, what part of you is thinking them, you might feel disgusted or upset with yourself your inabilities or your social interactions as they unfold messily onto the world, or at least messily inside your head, as if you are clumsily navigating a large piece of machinery that you can't access all the controls to you will go through this day and many more just like it.

Many with even weirder or more troubling experiences unmentioned.

You will feel and experience the strangeness of your own show exclusively backstage behind the curtained off self.

That is you at the end of the day, again, depending on the day of the week, you might feel like doing nothing.

However, doing nothing won't quite be enough.

So as a compromise, you might watch colored pixels dance around in the form of different still images on a screen presenting visuals of people.

You don't know, but have perhaps become drawn to with a sincere sense of connection to the artificial story they tell or person they play soon.

You go to your designated spot in order to turn off and recharge again, perhaps you might fall asleep right away, or perhaps at least this night you might find a challenge in turning yourself off so easily.

Perhaps the strangeness of everything that just happened and is still happening, everything that you're supposed to otherwise suppose as normal was and is frankly from this view pretty strange and perhaps, as you notice, this strangeness, you might feel as though you personally are strange in a way that must be more exclusive to you, because essentially everyone else you saw today and every other day basically seemed fine and, like everything, was totally normal, but to them.

So did you in truth, even the most basic of acts done by even the most so-called normal and stable of people are from a zoomed in lens completely strange and weird oftentimes in most contexts our oddness is deemed quite normal, which is fine and well, but it does, however, make our so-called normalcy quite odd when you think about it in these late night hours or moments of reflection.

However, arguably these odd moments of reflection of an odd day and odd life, a sense of personal strangeness or isolation or craziness, is perhaps the most undoubtedly normal thing.

Any of us could experience to you to me to everyone.

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